Think Happy Thoughts.....(repeat, repeat, repeat)

I had a terrible meeting with our HR manager today. I already do not have the greatest deal of confidence in the way she does her job due to a previous episode in which she "overlooked" my email application for a supervisor position that was available a while back. She is a terrible speaker at meeting and pretty much shows how little she knows everytime she opens her mouth. Bitter? Naahhhh! So the meeting left me pretty much pissed off, and ready to yell " I QUIT, BITCH!!!" But, seeing as I have bills, and a child I didn't think that was a good idea to do, at least until I find another job, then, well....But I am not letting that ruin my day or weekend. It is Friday, it's like 75 degrees outside and the weekend is supossed to be beautiful! I plan on going an enjoying some of the lovely free atractions St. Louis has to offer. Maybe the Zoo, Science Center, or Arch. Depends what Ant wants to see. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend also!!!!

And it begins....

Everywhere I go something out of the ordinary happens to me. Well last night I was laying in bed watching TV before going to sleep. I hear a knock at the door, I was like who the hell can this be. So I look out the peep hole and see a guy witha white t-shirt on and a hat, T had come by earlier and had that exact thing on so without asking who is it, as I usually do, I just opened the door. And it wasn't T, some guy asked if Rita lived here, I said no, he said "oh, are you new here", I was like "yeah"...then started to shut the door and he asked "do you stay here by yourself"....then I started to get a little freaked out...even though I do live by myself with my 7 year old son, I said "no", to which he said "oh does your boyfriend stay here too" I said "yes" and shut the door. What a weirdo! Who comes up to someone's door at 10:30 at night and after realizing the person they are looking for doesn't live there, proceeds to strike up a creepy converstation like that. Like I was really going to say "Yeah, I live here all alone", now just push the door open and do what you please! I couldn't sleep after that, I kept thinking what if he comes back and breaks in, maybe he knew I was lying about living by myself. Crazy people! Another crazy thing that happened last night, my heat went nuts. I had the setting on "heat", but the furnace and the outside air-conditioning unit were running at the same time. I thought I kept feeling cold air coming out of the vents but I thought I was just tripping cuz then I would feel warm air, but when I went to my room I heard the unit buzzing away outside my window. But I opened the door where the furnace is and it was running also! I was like this can't be good. Heat and cold at the same time I'm gonna cuz a tornado in here, or blow something up, one of the two! So I had to shut off the heat all together. It wasn't all too cold last night but it was in the 40's so it was chilly. I put an extra blanket on Anthony, and bundled myself up under an extra blanket and it wasn't bad but Ant was freezing this morning when he got up from under the blankets. They are supossed to be at the apartment fixing it now. Hope it's done before I get home.

It's Friday, It's Friday....

Oh so glad it's Friday. A whole two days to relax and have fun! This has been a long week. Nothing too exciting going on. T and I are doing well. He came over and I made us dinner last night. Then we watched Dave Chappelle's Block Party ( got the bootleg yesterday at the laundromat hee hee) it wasn't what I thought it would be. It was more of a concert/documentary type movie, not much comedy at all. I fell asleep during it. But I fell asleep on T so it was still good! ;-) Nothing else too interesting going on. No plans for the weekend. I'm broke as I don't even know what! I screwed up my checking account and overdrew, it was like 5 little things no more than $7 each, totalling probably $15 - $20 and I am now -$197!! They charged me $34 each time! I am pissed but I did it and there is nothing to do now but try and borrow some money somewhere to get my account back on the positive side! Yikes! Such is life I guess. I'll get over it. Ok have a good weekend everyone!!

What the hell??!!

Ok, I know I haven't had the best luck in love. But what is up with ex's telling me I pretty much suck at relationships lately? First it's B with his smart ass text messages about "having bad luck with men", ok he was just mad cuz I'm not seeing his sorry ass anymore. Then there is Carlton, a guy I dated more than 10 years ago but we have kept in contact and still talk on occasion. Well he has been telling me lately that we should sleep together. We have never slept together even when we dated. He was an alcoholic and moved away to go to rehab, and has since been sober over 4 years, has a job, and has gotten into church. I am very proud of him, he is a wonderful person but he lives over 2 hours away now. He comes down to visit and we hang out but what kind of relationship could we have. He has already said he won't move back here, too much temptation. And I am not moving there so really there is no way it would work even if we were to try and start a relationship so we have just been friends, until now. He says we should "get together" when he comes back down. So I told him I was dating T and that wouldn't be a good idea. He acts shocked that I have a man and says "oh good you are always meeting someone and it never works out but that's your problem"....gee thanks for the vote of confidence there buddy!

Weekend Rundown

It was a pretty good weekend. T came over Friday, we hung out watched TV, he helped me get some stuff out of the apartment and stayed the night. It was nice. He went lhome for a while Saturday then came back over. We had dinner, then Chrissy, Gigi, and my sister came over. We had a few Long Island Ice Teas and played cards. He stayed the night again! Sunday we got up, I started cleaning up the kitchen and he cleaned up the living room! I was excited, he is such a nice guy. I keep waiting and thinking "ok, what is wrong with him". He seems perfect. He has a good job, he is so sweet, he likes kids and played with my son, he helps me whenever I need it, my son actually likes him, my friends like him, which is very unusual they don't usually like any of my "men".....so why am I waiting for something bad?! I'm crazy and used to something bad happening I guess. B had still been calling and stuff, I told him I was seeing someone, he didn't like that. Even though he LIVES with a girl, and we broke off the twisted relationship we had, I got mean little text messages from him all weekend. Including "we will just see how long it takes u to catch him in a lie", along with "you know you have bad luck with men". Nice huh? He is just so weird. I went out to my car last night and I had a flat tire. First thing I thought about was that B did it. T put the spare tire on and on the way to work this morning I stopped and got a new tire. My tire had a hole in the side. B had messaged me this morning with "I wish you the best I'm still here if you need anything". Then I started thinking he did that to my tire cuz he thought I would call him to come fix it. Ha, fooled him I went and got it fixed myself! He says he didn't do it but who knows. I don't care, I'm done with him. Other than that things are going good. I love my new place. Just can't wait until everything is finally all put together. I don't have much left so I'm doing pretty good.

I moved!

I am moved into my new apartment and I love the apartment. It's so nice and everything is brand new!!! Everything is in the apartment although it's not all put away it's getting there! I have to thank Jamie, she helped me soooo much moving, unpacking, cleaning, and everything! Thanks and I love ya!!

My first day moving in, I had just loaded mine and Anthony's clothes into my dad's truck and went to drop them off. I pull up, and there was this guy sitting outside, I get out and he asks me "hey, you selling clothes"? I said "No, I'm moving in", he was like "oh, alright". Boy oh boy living here is going to be an adventure I can tell already. My complex has 4 buildings, so far I am the only white tenant! It doesn't bother me, I just keep thinking about how I will probably be referred to as the "white lady". :-) Oh well.....I've been called worse!

Anthony loves it. He is so excited. His room is all put together and he actually slept in his own bed, BY himself last night. Yes, he is 7 years old, and yes he was still sleeping in the same bed as me. I know. He just always has shared a bed with me, mostly because when he was born I liked having him sleep with me, made middle of the night feedings easier, plus we only had one room to share. Then we moved, again we only had one bedroom. Then we had 2 bedrooms for a while, he had he own room but he was 2 years old and didn't like sleeping by himself, nor did I so....he slept with me and I just never really pushed the issue for him to get into his own bed. I thought as he got older he would just go into his own bed, yeah was I wrong, he turned 5, 6 and finally 7, and he never wanted to leave. But I have been preparing him during the last year, that when we moved, he would get him own room, and he was a big boy now and would be sleeping in his own bed. He seemed excited, and he slept in there without a problem last night. It was wonderful!! A whole bed to myself and a whole night with out being kicked in the face while I slept...Ahhhhh.....life is good.

2 days to go!

Although I was origianlly supossed to move tomorrow, they called Friday and told me that the cabinets wouldn't be there until Wednesday so I wouldn't be able to move in until Thursday. Which is only one day but man, I have been waiting forever already. At least it's finally almost here. My parents ended up buying me some new living room furniture, I was excited! It's pretty and I like it alot. So much for my project. It was fun while it lasted. I will still use the 2 big pillows that I got finished for something so it isn't wasted. And after today I am off for the next 2 and a half days! Can't wait for that even though I will be busy moving and not relaxing it will be good. Ok sorry for the short post but my shoulder is killing me, I have no idea what I did to it, but typing isn't helping so ta ta!!

So so Friday

Today has been full of ups and downs. First I have a meeting with my supervisor. She says my schedule is going to change and I am going to have to work half a day at one office and half a day at another office, twice a week. Now, I don't really mind doing this. Makes my day go by faster so what the heck. Then she talks about me being a floater to cover other offices when people are out. Ok. And wants me to sit down with her and create a procedure manual on some of the things we do here. Ok. Well when she applied for this supervisor position, I did also. She had worked for our company 6 months, me 4 years. I know tons about the daily workings of this company and have learned many other department duties as well. My email applying for the position was "overlooked". As I was told after the announcement was made that the person had been chosen and I hadn't even recieved a response. So I questioned it and found out the person who was in charge of that was "sorry, she simply missed my application email" and there was "nothing they could do now". I was pretty mad, but as I always do let it go. When I talked to my former supervisor about the situation she was upset but said "not to make you feel better about being overlooked, but the position includes alot of travelling, and covering shifts for other staff who are out on vacation or sick whatever, and she didn't think I would have wanted the position due to having a son and daycare issues etc." So that made me think ok, I probably really wouldn't have wanted the job anyway, even though I could use more money. Then comes the salt in the wound. Now the new supervisor would like me to do part of her job in covering missing staff, and help her put together a training manual. During this meeting she mentioned 1. how much I know about the everyday workings 2. she needs me to help get her up to speed on things that she has no idea what they are 3. I am going to be like her "assistant" helping out when she is on vacation and such. So if all this is said, why again wasn't I given the position in the first place? Why do I have to do part of the job discription for the position now without the pay increase? Doesn't sound fair to me. There is so much more to this but I'm done stressing over it. Bottom line is I have begun a job search. I have sent out about 15 resumes this week. I will just have to go with the flow and put up with the bullshit until I can find a better opportunity.

On the "up" side, I got my bonus report for the month and it is about 3 times higher than it usually is, so that's good. It is actually something that will make a difference on my paycheck. And another "up" it's FRIDAY!!!! Moving day is coming sooner and sooner, I only have to work 2.5 days next week, so things are good.

Have a great weekend folks!!!

I'm "sew" domestic

Ha, I just keep em coming don't I! My sewing project is coming along. The fabric tape didn't work, but the fabric glue did. I have gotten all my pillows together now I just need to get the old ones out of storage and switch the stuffing from the old to the new. Oh yea and figure out how to close the pillows once the stuffing is in. I've got three sides closed but I guess I will have to sew the last side closed b/c of the stuffing the sides won't hold toeghter for the glue to dry. I'm sure I'll figure something out. I found a little handheld sewing machine my mom had and it was great it really worked for a little while anyway, I got one and a half pillow sewn and then it decided that was it, didn't want to work anymore. Maybe it needed a break I will try new batteries and see if it works again. We shall see.

B brought me lunch today. My first thought was "is he trying to poison me"....then I was like No, he wouldn't think of that he is just being nice. So I ate it. It was good, fried chicken, mixed veggies, and a baked potatoe. So if I die just a heads up to those who know me in real life, check for poison. Ok, thanks!

So this week is almost over. I only work Monday and Tuesday next week and then it's moving time! I can do without the actual moving of the items but I will be so glad to be moved in! B asked if still wanted him to help me move. I said I had it covered, he acted offended but I didn't really want him to help with his "I owe him" attitude. When we broke up he threw up everything he has ever done/bought/or given me in my face. Which was quite a bit but I never would have excepted if I knew it came with strings attached. Plus T said he would help and I just don't know how well that would go over, B being the jealous type and not wanting to be out of our relationship, I see things getting out of hand. But I really, REALLY don't want to move heavy stuff, and would rather have someone move it for me. Which is what usually happens when I move, I do a minimal amount of the work as far and carrying stuff. I'm a little spoiled yes, that's how I like it. B likes to spoil and I wouldn't mind him doing all the work so I haven't yet decided if I will say ok I need your help or not. We'll see next week.

2 for 1

Hot damn, it's your lucky day. TWO posts in ONE day, oh my! Well I went to the fabric store and bought some fabric to make some of the pillows for my couch. One of my co-workers suggested a "no-sew" option since she saw me with a needle and thread instead of a sewing machine....she suggested the double sided fabric tape. What a great idea, I thought. So back to the store I went and got some tape. I came back and put together my pillows! They turned out good, except when I turned them right side out, the tape seemed to pull apart some. I am thinking it needs time to set so I left them alone and will check tommorrow. If they still pull apart I will have to find someone with a sewing machine to run them through. And yes, while at work today I managed to make 3 pillows. It's been a slow day around here. Now I will just need to get some fabric to redo the 5 big pillows and I will be done. I can't wait to see how this all turns out!

Hump Day Highlights...

Ha, wasn't that a cute title. Yea whatever! Anyway, I am feeling better since my Monday meltdown. Mood is coming back to normal. Things are working out. 1 that is ONE week from today I will no longer be living at my parent's house!!!! I called my oldest, dearest friend Jamie to see if she wanted to help me move. And not only did she say yes, but took the day off work, and got us a truck to use! She is the greatest!! One more thing, about the slip covers that were gonna cost me about $250.....well I found them at a discount store....$49.99 for the sofa and $39.99 for the love seat! How cool is that. I'm sure they aren't as fancy as the more expensive ones but heck they will make my furniture look a bit better. I was happy. And if I can con my mom into buying a sewing machine I am going to attempt to redo the pillows myself. I have been watching too much HGTV and I have so many projects I want to try. But I think I will start by trying to redo my pillows. It doesn't look so hard. And it would probably be cheaper to buy fabric than to spend $7 - $10 apiece on new throw pillows for the couch.

It is so nasty outside to day. Rainy, grey, and yucky. Perfect sleeping weather but sucks when you have to get up and go to work in the crap! I'm still sleepy.

Ok kids talk to ya later!!

Just another Moody Monday

I am in a bad mood today. At least part of today. I go from feeling okay to down right bitchy! Hormones must be to blame. Who knows.

Had a quite weekend. Friday night went and hung out with T, we watched a DVD and talked. It was cool. Saturday I went to Nina's and hung out by the bon fire. Had a good time. Sunday went to bingo. I just had this feeling I was going to win the big jackpot and get some $$ to buy me some new furniture. And I came close lots of times only to here "BINGO" when I'm down to 1 or 2 numbers. I was pissed. Nina Pop also was soooo close she had 1 color left on her raffle to win $500 not once but twice and both times someone went out before her color came up. So needlesss to say we left bingo pissed!

Then today started out ok but as the day goes on, I keep feeling more and more bitchy. I'm ready for a nap I think. Good thing I get to go home in about a half hour. My head is even starting to hurt. I have also been trying to work out money matters today so that isn't helping. Never seems to be enough money. Story of my life. Not that we are doing without anything, it just sucks to work out bills and such and just make it. There are a few things I want, but I don't really need them to live ya know. Like my living room furniture. It's seen better days. I don't like the color at all anymore, and it has a few tears in some pillows, and needs steam cleaned badly. I would like to get new stuff, but I don't have the money for that right now. So I thought about slip covers but those are even a few hundred bucks that I can't do right now so I was bummed. I'll get over it. I'm looking forward to being in my apartment. The 15th can't come fast enough. Still wondering how things are all going to get moved, since me and B broke it off, and he has a truck and was going to move all my big stuff. My dad has a trailor we used to move it before but he works all week so I would have to wait til the weekend to get it moved. And ya know that just isn't going to work. :-) A few people have offered to help so I'm sure I'll make it. Only 9 days to go.....

That's right!!

Someone sent this email to me about billboards you will never see, I just really liked this one!

I don't know why but I read it and it my head it automatically has a hispanic accent...don't ask why I assume all dogs are hispanic and anytime I say something imitating what a dog is thinking it is always done with the accent....I know I'm an idiot. But I'm not the only one, both Gigi and Chrissy do the same thing, cuz yea that's makes it better.....

I won the LOTTERY!!!

The scratch off lottery that is.....ha ha!!

Ok, so you would think I just won a million dollars! I am addicted to scratch off lottery tickets, as my sister tells me anyway. So I bought a few tickets on my way to work this morning. I scratched them off after I got to work and I won $25 on a $2 scratch off!!! My biggest jackpot yet!!! Before this the most I won was $5. I am so excited!! I will probably be an idiot and go buy more and then lose. But hey they are fun! Ok, enough about that.

I hung out with the new T a few nights ago. We went to the park and walked around since we are having such warm weather here right now. We talked and sat by the lake and watched the fountain change colors. It was really sweet. We kissed a little and held hands, and he walked behind me with his arms around me, awwwww!!! I felt like a teenager. We sat and just laughed and talked for an hour. We get along really well. He is 4 years younger than me, which is different seeing as I usually go for 15 years older than me! Hee! Just seems weird being 27 which is so close to 30 and he is 23 which is like so close to 20!! But I like him so we'll see what happens. We are going to see Madea's Family Reunion sometime this week. I can't wait. Both to spend more time with him and I love Tyler Perry's movies!! Madea is SO FREAKIN' FUNNY!!! I literally laugh to tears when watching her! If you haven't already check out Diary of a Mad Black Woman, it's a great movie.....

Ok going to meet Nina Pop for lunch TTFN!!