Last post of the year......

Well, what to say. This year has definately gotten away from me. It hasn't been a very productive year, I moved in with my parents thinking I would be there 2 or 3 months AT THE MOST, yet here I am 9 months later, and well yeah. I have not kept any of my resoultions from last year, yet I will make them again this year and see if I can keep to a litter longer this time. I can't remember anything particularly bad happening to me this past year so that has to be a plus. My son is doing well. I still can't believe he is going to be 7 YEARS old in a few short months. Whatever happened to that chubby little baby I had what seems like just yesterday! When he was a cranky, crying, little infant, everyone told me how fast they grew up, I didn't believe it until now. Now I sometimes look back and wonder did I cherish those times enough. I remember feeling so overwhelmed and wondering if it was every going to get easier. I guess it didn't help that I had just turned 20 when I gave birth, and that I started attending school when he was 3 months old. I feel I missed alot. I was thre when he took his first steps, I remember the feeling so well. I cried, I was so excited. I ran thru the house telling everyone, "He just walked". He was 9 months old, I just knew he was going to be a super child!! And of course he has never disappointed me.

So now it is time to relect on the past, learn from my many many mistakes and hope to not repeat them in the coming year. My only real resolution for this year is to learn to love life more, not to sweat the small stuff, and enjoy every moment with friends and family because life flies by too fast!

Here's to hoping everyone has a wonderful New Year! (And an "intoxicating" New Year's Eve) Enjoy the booze, I know I will be!!

Case of the blahs

I have a case of the blahs bad. I don't know if it's the holiday season or what. I feel down. Christmas was ok, it just didn't seem like "Christmas" though. Just feeling down and ready to get out of my parents house I guess. I should be able to move next month as long as I find a place I can afford. Which brings me to another reason I am feeling down. I'm always broke. I always worry about having money to pay the things I need to pay. Seems there is always something coming up to make money matters worse. I am hoping my raise is enough to make a difference this year. I know I make pretty good money for being a secretary but still not enough that this could really be my career. I need to go back to school and get a degree in something. Just don't know what yet. I was so set on nursing but my weak stomach may not allow that. I don't have any ideas that interest me as much as medicine does though. That is the only thing that has kept my interest over the years. Who knows. I guess I will have to make a decision within the next few months in order to get things together to try and start in the fall semister. Oh, why can't I just win the lottery or find me a rich husband to take care of me......dreams, dreams.....

Picture OVERLOAD!!!

Ant and Mya watching cartoons.....

Anthony & Mya

Anthony playing in the first snow we had this year....

Ant and our 10 year old Chow, Lady-bug

Caught!! Eating ice cream in my bed!!

Posing in his new PJ's!!! Future model here!

And no I'm not putting my 6 year to work! He BEGGED to use the leaf blower and blow the leaves out of the yard, he actually did a pretty good job! He was out there for about an hour!

Mya and "Chump", Ant's monkey he made at Build A Bear.

Kloe Kay and puppy....awwww!

He called

Yep, yesterday he called 3 times actually! Yeah. We are supossed to get together this Thursday evening. Now I just have to get rid of "B" for good.....but this is a start! It's always easier to get over a man with what else - another man! Never want to be totally alone right, especially in the winter. I don't know why that makes such a difference, I guess since it's cold and your home more you have more time to realize "hey, I'd like to have a man around"....who knows. We shall see where this one goes....

I am also counting down the days until I am out of my parents house!!! I should get my income tax refund around the 15th of next month so I will be able to move finally!! It has been a LONG and difficult 10 months! It will be nice to be in my own place again. Man, I can't wait. I have been trying to find an apartment but haven't had any luck yet. I saw a sign in front of an apartment complex on my way to work though so I will drive back that way on the way home and get the number.

Let's be frank.....

I. AM. AN. IDIOT!!! Seriously. I went out Saturday night with the girls! We had a great time, I was in a hyper/drunk mood. C and I were out on the dance floor and some dude just kept looking at me so I waved, being friendly. He came over a we were talking I asked his name,(Frank) blah blah blah, this went on for about 10 minuets before I realized holy shit, I know this guy, I met him at the same club about 2 years ago!!! We had talked for a little while, he had been over to my house, visited me at my job and it took me 10 mins. to realize I already knew this guy! I was like "why didn't you say something" to which he replied "I was seeing how long it would take you to remember me". Man, I felt like such a dumb ass!!! But we chatted the rest of the night, danced and had a good time. We exchanged phone numbers, he called that morning, since we didn't leave the club til 6am, and made sure I made it home ok but I haven't heard from him since. I guess we will see if he calls today.....

Wow, it's Monday again

Looks like the last time I complained....er...posted it was Monday also!! I have the worst cold right now. My head feels like it's going to explode, I'm coughing, my eyes are watering, and my nose keeps running. Plus its MONDAY!!! I just want to go back home and crawl back under my blankets. I am seriously thinking about going out to my car on lunch cranking up the heat and taking a nap. Called my supervisor to ask about getting someone over here to cover for me but I haven't heard back yet so most likely I will be here all day. Suffering! Damn germs!

Monday.....

Oh joy! Mondays are no fun. I have my yearly evaluation at work today. Hope they give me a big fat pay raise! I could sure use it. Nothing exciting happened over the weekend. I didn't even get to go out! Darn. I sure wanted to but the "B" wanted to go with me and then that just wouldn't have been any fun now would it. Flirting and getting free drinks is the part of the whole going out experience and without that well, it's just no fun. So we stayed in. Boring boring boring......

TGIF!!!!

Oh, it's Friday, how I love Friday(s)!! No real plans this weekend, yet I never have plans so I'm sure I'll find some trouble to get into. I am in a good mood today. I started taking this new medicine my doctor prescribed me to help me lose weight. I don't know if it's just because I'm so excited about having something to help me lose all this weight or if it's the "stimulant" in the pills. I am wired! But feeling good. I am cutting off the fast food! I had oatmeal for breakfast, a turkey breast sub from Subway for lunch along with "baked" Lays! Not too bad so far. I just have to make it thru tonight and this weekend. Work days are easier since I can stock good for youfoods only and not be tempted, as easily :-)Ok have a good weekend everybody!!!