What the *&%$...

So, it's 2008....

2008-07-16T13:16:00.000-07:00

I have thought about this blog off and on for the past year, never when I was near a computer of course, but today I decided to see if it still existed. And alas, it does. So your probably expecting some cool updates, big changes, terrific news, right?!!? Well I gots none of that. I am still at the same place of employment, unfortunately. I am engaged, but I think I was last year too. Still one child, he's 9 years old now and thinks he knows everything. Oh one thing, I have a neice on the way, due to arrive in about 3 weeks!!! I am super excited about that!! Things have been going, not great not bad, just life I guess. I was reading over some post from last year, I saw the picture I posted of little Ethan, it's hard to even remember him that small, he is a running, jabbering, toddler now, and doing wonderful...

He here is crawling in my puppy's cage....

And trying to get the camera when I was taking his picture...

A pic of my family....

My puppy

My favorite boys...

Well I wish I had more interesting updates but that's it for now....

2007-07-10T16:16:00.000-07:00

So maybe life isn't so good afterall.....

So I just decide to post yesterday about how my life is going well, I'm happy, blah blah blah...I must have upset the happiness gods because on lunch yesterday afternoon I am driving back to the office and I decide to go thru the neighborhood next to my office, la la la looking at houses, stop at a stop sign and bam, my damn axle breaks on my car. To add to my pleasure I forgot to charge my cell phone the night before and it was dead. So out I go in the 100 degree heat mind you, walking in my super cute sandles that so not super comfy to walk around in walking the 2 blocks or so to my office. N O T F U N!!! I get there, call around for tow trucks, cry a little, cuss, ya know the norm, and finally call Gigi to come pick me up and take me back to my car to wait for the tow truck. So things are ok, I get the car home, my dad looks under it and says the axle is broken and it looks as if my A-frame is cracked. So I have had it with this old raggady car, that has 1 windsheild wiper, only 3 windows that go down, and only 2 that actually go back up, the ignition switch is going out so it takes a good 5 mins. to start the car, after a whole lot of wiggling, shaking of the steering wheel and cussing, no AC which is not good in the aforementioned 100 degree St. Louis weather, and needs a exhaust issue fixed that causes it to sound like a race car letting everyone in a 1 mile radius know Crystal is coming down the road!! But I regress, I go up to the local car dealership, tell them my situation, I have no money down, I need a cheap, realiable used car to get me back and forth to school and work. I find a honey of a deal* on a 2000 Buick Century with only 60,000 miles on it. It has 2 windsheild wipers, AC and I fall in love. The guy sells it to me for $5900! Great deal, everything was going well until today, 24 hours after said purchase, I hear the oddly familar "pop", and "jiggling of metal" sound as I had heard in my old car. Surely this can't be, another car with an axle problem, I'm just being parinoid, right?! So I turn down the radio, turn off the nice cool AC, and turn to the left....."pop"!!! Yep something is wrong. I am so freaking pissed right now. I have a 30 day 50/50 warrenty but come on 24 hours later....they better fix this!! I don't have the money to pay even the half of the costs! I'm broke as a joke right now. I'm stretching the budget already with the new car payment, but figured it would be worth it just to have a safe, dependable car, but NOOOOO, my luck is just not that great! Cars HATE me, that has to be it! I have NEVER had any good luck with cars, NEVER!!! Something "crazy" is always happening to me and my cars....stuff that doesn't happen to normal people....steering wheels falling off in my hands, yes this has happened to me seriously, now tires falling off! I can't take much more!!!

2007-07-09T09:11:00.000-07:00

So, it's been 5 months since I wrote on this here blog. I guess I forgot about it for a little while. Not really forgot I thought about it sometimes and said man, I need to write something on there, only to forget a short time later. Last night as I was laying in bed trying to get to sleep I kept thinking about this blog for some reason. I can't belive I have been posting on this thing for over 2 years now. I was thinking about how much my life has changed in those two years and how cool it is to read old posts and remember times I had forgotten. When I started this thing I had just turned 26, why does that number look so much better than 28, and why am I so afraid of turning 30? Back then I wasn't too happy with my life, but now things are actually going my way. I have found a wonderful man whom I just adore, we are in the process of buying a house, I'm engaged, and attending college like I planned for so long. I have finished 2 semesters now and am getting closer to my dream of becoming an RN, slowly but I'm not in a rush! I am definately much happier with my life these days.

I noticed one of the last posts was about my best friend Nina's baby Ethan. He is doing so well. He is now 6 months old weighs 13 lbs and is just a cute happy baby! He's a pic....

Ramblings....

2007-02-21T09:25:00.000-08:00

So I got this new Herbel Essence shampoo, "None of your Frizness". Big mistake! Not because it doesn't work well and smells great but now everytime I get in the shower I start to sing.....
"If I wanna take a guy home with me tonight, IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!! And if she wanna be a freak and sell it on the weekend...."
You remember the song! Yea it's been stuck in my head for a week now!! I'm gonna have to switch shampoo!

It's my Birthday!!

2007-01-19T11:51:00.000-08:00

Cash is welcome, I also accept gift cards if you would like to mail me a gift, please email me for shipping details!! :-) I am 28 today. I sure don't feel like I should be that old. 30 is getting closer and closer! It's ok though, I was a little upset as this day approached but I'm accepting it now, and I'm ok with getting older. I think at least. My life is going well these days and I no longer see myself as being "behind" where I wanted to be by now. I'm finally happy! So it took 27 years to get here....Have a great weekend everyone!

Update on Baby Ethan

2007-01-10T11:17:00.000-08:00

He is doing well, here is a pic I took yesterday of him sucking on his little pacifier! So cute!!!

Happy New Year!!

2007-01-02T11:48:00.000-08:00

Hope everyone had fun bringing in the New Year!! I sure did, although I didn't make it but an hour past midnight! I had a great time.

I would also like to annouce the (early) birth of my best friend Stephanie's son Ethan Michael. He was born 14 weeks early weighing in at a hefty 2lbs 3oz. He is doing well and getting bigger day by day. He will be in the hospital for some time, please keep him in your prayers!!

Report Card Time

2006-12-19T11:43:00.000-08:00

ENG 101-021 RHETORIC & COMPOSITION I - A
HRO 160-IN2 MEDICAL TERMINOLOGY - A
MATH 094-019 BASIC ALGEBRA - A

Term GPA 4.0

Holy Crap! My first report card in almost 10 years and I got straight A's! Go me!! Next semister is going to be so much harder, hope I can keep up with this 4.0 GPA! I'm a dork, I know!

Lucky Me!!

2006-12-12T12:53:00.000-08:00

I bought some raffle tickets last week at school. It was to support a student trip to Ireland, and 2nd prize was an Ipod which I want badly, 1st prize was a TV and I could always use one of those. I didn't look at the other prizes, until today when I got the call that I had won 3rd place, A handcrafted desk. WTH?! 4th and 5th places were DVD players, and 6th place was gift certificates to the movies! Any of those I would love to have except, 3rd, which is what I got. Damn. I hate feeling ungrateful that I won but I don't have room for it really. I guess I could always sell it. I'm am still happy I actually won though!! Yippee! Oh the guy told me I need to bring a truck to pick it up, it's pretty big. Oh boy, I can't wait to see what this monster looks like!

In other news, I took my English final this morning. I think I did fairly well. I hope to get an A in this class, all of my papers so far have gotten A's lets hope the final does as well. It's was on Voltaire's "Candide" which I just finished reading at 6 am today, a whole hour and a half before the final, how's that for procrastanation! It's terrible especially since I have had the book for months. It was a pretty good story overall, except for the crazy names of the characters, and the "old time" talk...The essay question for the final? "Was Candide an idiot for leaving El Dorado"? Anyone read the book? Feel free to leave your comments.....

It's been FOREVER!

2006-12-08T14:38:00.000-08:00

I didn't really forget I had this here blog, I just haven't really had much time or anything too exciting to blog about. Let's see what has been going on? I am almost done with my first semester in college. It has gone by faster than I ever thought it would, I hope the rest of the time goes by this fast. I have 3 finals to take next week and then I will be off until January. My course load is going up from 9 this last semester to 13 next semester!! Yikes. I'm freakin' out but I need to get these classes done to apply for the RN program. So we shall see.....

Other than school, home is great. Terel and I are still together, almost 10 months! We live together now and it's been wonderful. He is the love of my life and Anthony just adores him. It seems like such a short amount of time but then again I feel like I've known him forever. We just get along so well, he is the best!!

We had a scary car accident in September. The SUV we were in had a blow out and we flipped 3 times on the highway. We were all banged up, and Anthony had a gash to his head. He was in the hospital a day and a half but we are all healed up now and doing great! I must admit God is good, he was definately looking out for us on that day!!!

I'm very excited about Christmas this year. This time of year usually gets me down, but I"m happy and looking forward to it this year. I am fighting a terrible cold right now and that is kicking my butt. Terel and Anthony are also sick, so we have all just been watching TV and taking medicine this week. Working has not been fun but hey what can ya do. I am on vacation Christmas week so I'm glad!

Ok, enough rambling hope everyone is doing well, if anyone even check here still, I know I kindof abandoned this blog! Hopefully I will be able to keep up a little better!

Crystal

Well well well.....

2006-09-12T12:32:00.000-07:00

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That dog reminds me of my former dog, Smokey. I miss him....Ok enough of that.

So school is going well, I got a perfect score on my first Algebra quiz....yeah!! I just got done writing my first English paper, we'll see how that one goes....

Not too much else is going on just wanted to update all my many loyal readers (as my comment section shows)....yeah, nobody reads this but it's just for me anyway!

A whole month.....

2006-08-30T08:52:00.000-07:00

Wow, it's been a whole month since I have posted....you would be expecting this big long post about all the exciting things that have been happening over this past month that have kept me away from this blog huh?!? Well to tell the truth, nothing. Nothing exciting has been happening lately. I did start school last week!!! Yeah!!!!! Not that I'm really THAT excited about school, more excited about the fact that I am actually doing something I have been wanting to do for the last 7 years. I thought I would hate it, really. I have to get up at 6am two days a week to go to class from 8 - 11 am, then to work until 8:30 pm...I was exhausted the first week but this week I'm doing pretty good. And I'm in a better mood, strangely enough. It's a nice feeling!

I GOT THE POWER!

2006-07-26T08:57:00.000-07:00

I FINALLY have my power back. After what would have been a week today. I almost did a cartwheel I was so happy to see my lights back on!!! Yiippppeeee!!!!!!

Meant to be??

2006-07-25T16:11:00.000-07:00

I was thinking the other day about my life. I have mentioned on more than one occasion in this blog that I am not the most graceful person in the world, and out of the way things seem to happen to me more than any other person I know. As I sat and thought about it, I realized this has been going on since I was born! As I remember some of the stories family members have told me over the years I remember at about 6 months old or so, I was in my walker and fell down a flight of stairs! I was ok, bruised pretty good on my head but ok. Then around 2 years old or so, my mom say she was driving with me in a pickup truck. They stopped at a gas station where a friend had opened the passenger side door which I was on (no seatbelt no carseat abviously), and put some ice in the truck. Forgetting to shut the door all the way I guess. She said they were driving to my grandmothers, and she looked over at me after going around a curve and saw me, hanging on to the open door as we drove down the street!!! It has apparently opened as she turned and I was just hanging there like nothing was wrong. As I got older it continued. A close friend of my dad's who we always called "Uncle Bill" because he was like family, bought my sister and I new bikes one summer. I don't remember how old I was but I was in elementary school. The very first day we hop on, take off down the street, I remember I wasn't even down the block, I was barely past our house, and I ran over a stick, it flipped up into the spokes, locking my wheel front wheel and I flipped right over, head over heals! Before I finshed elementary school I would be involved in lots more mishaps, resulting in a skin graft surgery, and a surgery to insert metal pins into my hip becasue it was slipping out of the socket. They are still there to this day by the way. During Jr. High, I managed to sprain my ankle a million times it seemed, get shot in the foot with a BB gun, making my foot swell so big I couldn't wear a shoe on that foot and I'm sure there are plently more I can't think of. Then in high school. Oh high school. During those years I got shot at with a real gun, wrecked a few cars, ripped my pants jumping a fence while playing volleyball, and I'm sure I could go on. My adult years have gotten better but I still got some stories to tell.......maybe another time.

THAT is where I draw the line.....

2006-07-19T12:36:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I am known to occasionally wax eyebrows for my friends. It's fun to watch them wrench with pain as I RIP the hair off their faces....hee hee!! But I got this text message this morning:

C: Hey will you wax my bikini line?
Me: Hell no
C: Come on that's what friends are for
Me: Yea whatver

So I talk alotta crap but I will probably end up doing it for her, b/c after all if I can go to Planned Parenthood to get the Morning After pill for a friend, all the while having to "pretend" it was me who made the "ooppss", I can wax the hair off a friends nether region I guess.....I am starting to realize I am way too nice!

Soulmates....revisited

2006-07-10T10:51:00.000-07:00

Over a year ago I wrote about soulmates and whether or not they were real. I know believe they are. I don't mean to get all mushy, but I believe Terel is my soulmate. I am totally in love with him, for one. But more than that, I have never had the feelings I have for him, ever before in my life. I think I was in love with Anthony's dad, but I was young, and it wasn't a healthy relationship, still I guess I was in love. Even then I didn't feel what I feel now. I have dated, and really liked, men in the past few years, but none have given me what Terel has. I am not the best with words, but I was laying in bed last night watching him sleep, and I just started crying thinking about how loved I feel by him. How I love just feeling his hand brush my back, or feeling him next to me while we sleep. Or the way he comes up behind me while I'm doing dishes just to give me a hug and kiss and tell me he loves me. I have always felt that something was missing in my life and he really makes me feel whole. I have never fully trusted any man I have dated, EVER, but I truely trust Terel wholeheartedly. It's scary to say or even write that, thinking that it may go bad since I admitted it, but I do. I don't know how or why, it's just something I feel in my heart, I trust him, with my heart, with everything. Another thing is how much alike we are. We laugh at the same things, make the same silly kind of remarks, and even think alike. I will be thinking about something, and a few seconds later without me having a chance to mention it, he will come ask me the saem thing I was going to ask him. It's amazing. Another amazing thing is how he is with Anthony. It's like they have known each other forever. He accepts Anthony like his own child and when we talk about the future, he mentions Anthony as ours, I don't know if he really understands how wonderful that makes me feel, but it does. I am so happy in my life right now, and so glad that he is not only part of my happiness, but is sharing it with me.

Back to the grind.........

2006-07-10T10:44:00.000-07:00

Well after enjoying my wonderful 9 days off, I am back at work. Nothing too exciting to report from the vacation. The camping trip was fun. We swam, BBQ'd, roasted marshmellows, drank, played a new game I learned "poor man's golf", and had a pretty good time. We shot off fireworks at the lake and watched their firework display. It was really nice.

Monday I let Anthony shoot off the firework I bought him, b/c the news said it was going to rain on the 4th, which it did so I was glad I let him do it early.

Tuesday on the 4th, we spent the day with Terel's family at his grandmother's house. We had BBQ and watched Madea, it was fun.

The rest of the week was pretty uneventful. Saturday Ant went to Six Flags with his friend. Me and Terel decided to go out to eat, and then we went to the Wax Museum on Laclede's Landing, downtown STL. We had a great day and it was nice to just have some time for us. Without the child in tow.

Now it's back to work. Great.....

Camping trip....

2006-06-28T14:52:00.000-07:00

So this weekend Terel and I are meeting up with my parents, sister, brother in law and whoever else decides to go, at the lake! I am actually looking foward to this trip. My son is already down there. He has been with my parents since yesterday. So I am child free this week, going to the lake this weekend and I'm on vacation next week! Life is sweet right now! My parents just bought a boat, my son told me on the phone today that him and his Uncle Wayne are going to ski..this I gotta see. I can't wait to spend all day at the beach and on the boat. We always have a good time, and for the 4th of July they have a firework's show there, it's pretty neat. My Aunt and Uncle, cousin, and Grandma all live there so I will be visiting family also. And Nina Pop will also be there although on the other side of the lake, we will still have to hang out! I'm am having such a good week!!

Monday Moaning....

2006-06-26T13:03:00.000-07:00

Mondays sucks. But at least after this week I will be on vacation for a whole week!!! It will be my first "whole" week off in like 3 years. And I am so looking forward to it. I won't be doing much but me and Ant will be lounging around the pool alot. I can see that now. Other than that I will be trying to get my apartment back in order. It's hard keeping things from getting cluttered for me. Especially when I'm always busy, either working, cleaning, laundry, or some other crazy motherly duty. Meanwhile my son is busy destroying everything I have tried to clean up. Kids, boy they are a handful!

I watched one of my favorite movies yesterday....HOW HIGH, that movie is so funny! We also watched a stand up with Bruce Bruce. He's a funny ass MF'er too. Well that is all for today....ta ta!

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2006-06-23T12:35:00.000-07:00

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Ha ha!!

2006-06-21T12:42:00.000-07:00

This picture cracke me up!!

So I have also started a My Space page. That place is great. I found like 5 of my cousins are on there, and lots of people I went to school with, it's pretty neat to talk to them!!

Also I gave Terel my My Space address but wouldn't give him my blog address. Then realized I posted my blog address on the My Space page! Duh Crystal!! So Terel, baby, I love you!! Hope you don't find something really crazy on here that I forgot about writing!

Ok, bye for now!

Helluva Day

2006-06-19T12:29:00.000-07:00

Mondays, man I hate Mondays. I feel like crap today. I don't know why but I have woke up with a headache everyday for the past 3 days! I feel so sleepy even though I got enough sleep. My weekend was boring as hell, so that is probably why I don't feel all ready to be back at work! I did as close to absolutely nothing as possible. I took Ant to the carnival for a few hours. What a freaking rip off! Tickets were 20 for $15 but each ride cost between 2 and 4 tickets each! Then the games, for the cheap ass prizes, yeah he had to play those too. Don't get me wrong I love to see him happy, and that made him happy.....I just hate being so strapped for money that blowing $30 at a carnival seriously sets me back til the next payday. Being broke sucks!!

In other news I have had marriage on the brain for the past few days. I think it started after I began reading "Something Borrowed". She talks about being 27 (my age) and rethinking her plan to be married at 30 (which was also my plan). I always thought I would be married by 30. but then again 30 always seemed so far away. Now, I could throw a rock and hit it. I'm not looking forward to turning 30, I have a feeling I will still be single. While things with Terel and I are good. I'm not sure how long it's going to be before he is ready for marriage. He is only 23, so he has time. I, on the other hand, feel time is running out. I don't know why, I do. Plus Terel doesn't have kids yet but he does want them, and I keep thinking.....will I want another baby when my son is 10 years old?.......I think I want another child, I think I want one now.....but sometimes I'm not so sure. One think I do want is a WEDDING!!!! I have been picturing it, and plannign it in my head. Thinking of who would be his groomsmen, how many would he have so I know how many bridesmaids I can have....if we get married in a church. My other idea is to go off and get married on the beach somewhere, by ourselves, and just have a huge reception when we get back. That may piss some people off though. Who knows. I'm planning something that isn't even anymore than an idea in my head right now. It's still fun to dream!

I love him!!

2006-06-15T15:21:00.000-07:00

Well me and Terel are doing better. He has been back to his old sweet self and I'm loving it. Last night we had a little tiff but things smoothed out and we even exchanged "I love yous" for the first time last night! I really am head over heels for this man. I just hope things stay going the way they are....but you have to take chances so if it doesn't...it was worth it. I recently checked out this book, Best Loved Poems of the American People, Terel and I have been reading it. This morning as I was leaving for work he said "read page 45 when you get time".... So I took the book to work with me and here is the poem on page 45......

I want you

I want you when the shades of eve are falling
And purpling shadows drift across the land;
When sleepy birds to loving mates are calling-
I want the soothing softness of your hand.

I want you when the stars shine up above me,
And Heaven's flooded with the bright moonlight;
I want you with your arms and lips to love me
Throughout the wonder watches of the night.

I want you when in dreams I still remember
The ling'ring of your kiss-for old times' sake-
With all your gentle ways, so sweetly tender,
I want you in the mornign when I wake.

I want you when the day is at its noontime,
Sun-steeped and quiet, or drenched with sheets of rain;
I want you when the roses bloom in June-time;
I want you when the violets come again.

I want you when my soul is thrilled with passion;
I want you when I'm wary and depressed;
I want you when in lazy, slubrous fashion
My senses need the haven of your breast.

I want you when through field and wood I'm roaming;
I want you when I'm standing on the shore;
I want you when the summer birds are homing-
and when they've flown-I want you more and more.

I want you, dear, through every changing season;
I want you with a tear or with a smile;
I want you more than any rhyme or reason-
I want you, want you, want you-all the while.

--Arthur L. Gillom

Didn't go as planned....

2006-06-14T07:36:00.000-07:00

So I moved the DVD player into my son's room. He came in and had a fit!! He cried for about an hour, finally gave up and went and laid down in his bed. After another hour I walked in to find him sleeping peacefully in his bed. A few hours later I wake up to him crawling into my bed because he "had a bad dream". Which is the excuse he uses often, even when I know he hasn't even fallen asleep yet. So I gave up, he slept the rest of the night in my bed. So it half worked, guess we will keep on trying!

It's been a while....

2006-06-13T12:15:00.000-07:00

I haven't really had anything interesting to post about. Still don't but decided to ramble anyway. Nothing too exciting this past weekend, attended 2 birthday parties, one for a 1 year old and one for a 2 year old. Both cute as can be! Other than that I sat around being lazy. My house is a mess, I really need to clean it. I have started several times since Friday but I get one room done, usually the kitchen, and in a few hours it's messy again. Same way with the living room. my son can make a room look like it's been hit by a tornado in 2 seconds flat I swear! It's driving me crazy. He refuses to sleep in his bed, I have no idea why, he says he doesn't like it. Anyway so he sleeps on the couch and the living room always has his pillows and blankets in it. Plus all his toys. I am about to put a stop to it. I am even willing to put the DVD player in his room so he can sit in there and watch a movie and play with his toys instead of dragging his toys into the living room. We will be discussing this soon. Although at first I was just gald he wasn't sleeping in my bed anymore, the couch was fine, now it's driving me insane.

Another thing on my nerve today is the fact that I have to go work in our downtown office later today. Now normally this wouldn't bother me, I don't mind driving from one location to another and I don't mind working at the other location. The drive normally takes 15 minutes, but if anyone is living in the St. Louis area, you know they are doing road work on almost all the bridges going from IL to MO. And I know traffic is going to be SO FREAKIN' backed up when I drive over there. I am not a traffic person, I can feel teh road rage already. I have been in a crappy mood the last two days, I have no idea why, I just feel mad! Everything at work has been bothering me, the phone ringing, people asking me to do something....not good when you are the secretary!!

Well that's about all the complaining I have to do right now....